The Miracle

I had always lived a life without love.  It started early, when my needs were neither acknowledged nor met and I slowly became invisible.  My own feelings scared and startled me because they were not important to those around me.  Slowly, I grew ashamed of even having them.  As a child, I was constantly berated for how … Read more

Crescendo

My uncle stopped taking his medication.  He has schizophrenia. He and I have never met face to face—except when I was a toddler—but we have developed a close and caring bond over the phone.  He is a genius who attended an Ivy League college and had the world in his hands; even a fiancée.  One … Read more

Disarmed

She found herself in the throes of something cosmic–a purity of heart emanating from the center of her chest.  She could feel lightness take over as the shadows of yesterday receded from her heart and mind.  She stood in silence, allowing the feeling to wash over her.  It was foreign yet beautiful–the antithesis of the … Read more

Bomb Shelter

People often make the assumption that parents deserve our utmost respect and attention no matter their shortcomings or misdeeds.  I believe I must be in the minority of people that strongly disagree.  For example, it is my personal opinion that the mere act of giving birth to someone does not make one a true mother.  … Read more

My Fortress

As the year closes, and I approach my 40th birthday, I find myself physically and spiritually drained.  Run down with fever, I stayed home for Christmas and had much time to reflect on my life and how wonderful it is compared to what it used to be like.  My life today is a testament to … Read more

Fragments

The most bizarre feeling in the world is when someone I hold dear suddenly becomes a stranger.  I have especially been haunted by a failed romance as of late.  It was like a death, yet there was no finality.  He exists only blocks away from me, still we are in two different worlds.  Very much … Read more

The Well

How do we recover from the daily task of living on days when we feel broken inside?  How do we continue to love even though our hearts get repeatedly broken and after those we trust disappoint us? How do we thrive? These questions crossed my mind tonight as I prepare to spend my first Thanksgiving … Read more

There Were Two

In my nearly 40 years of living, I have been “in love” twice.  The first time around, I failed to realize there was someone else in the picture the whole time. The first time I fell in love, I was 23.  He was gorgeous, aloof, philosophical, and dangerous.  Our physical attraction was magnetic and the … Read more

Even Better. Ever Stronger.

Last night I met up with an old friend whom I had not seen in quite a long time.  The details of life have kept us busy and we made a plan, months ago, to see a Broadway show.  It was so good to see her, for she reminded me of who I am, how … Read more